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Apr. 28th, 2001
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Apr. 28th, 2001 10:55 amIf someone worth talking to doesn't show up soon, I'mna go back to bed, and then I'll be going out, and none of you will see me till the evening when you all will probably have gone to bed already, and you won't get to see me at ALL! Wouldn't that suck?!?
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Apr. 28th, 2001 02:13 pmYou know we can do it. We can both get what we want. It's just going to go faster if we work together at it. You know that there's strength in numbers, right? Well, there is. All I have to offer, really, is an apartment, a dream, a car, and a cover of "Lola" performed by a grrovy chick band.
Sometimes I just want to grab her through the computer screen and pull her through and just conquer the world with her. I guess maybe dogs smell out their own kind a little quicker... I'm trying to be patient and low-pressure, though... it's just difficult when I see a way that both of us could gain. I've NEVER been good at waiting. I'm more of a "I know what I want, and I want it NOW, and if I have to break my leg getting it, then so be it" kinda way.
It's true... I COULD do it without anyone's help. but I want to do it right this time. I don't want to be homeless again. I want to get out of here and still be sure that I've somewhere to go to when I start over in Washington. And y'know what? I don't want to do it by myself. Sometimes they say that adventures ought to be shared. I think that this is true in all cases, and the only question is who to share the adventure with. I've FINALLY found someone who's worth sharing one with. It just remains to be seen if she cares to participate. Because I'm sitting here steel-backed and bright eyed with determination (that thing some of you call "stubbornness") and hell... I'm pretty sure she'd love to be right at that point with me.
Sometimes when you start feeling blah... numb... and like you're no longer being seduced by the world... it's just time to make a break for it. Really. I mean... haven't you ever wanted to ust take off and run, and not worry about where you'll wind up until you get there, because hell... it's bound to be at least a little different than the point where yoiu started out at, right?
There's so much out there. Sometimes I think I'd find the determintation fo climb high enough to gather up stars in a big bag just so that when I came back, I could give them out as party favors.
I want everything.
Sometimes I just want to grab her through the computer screen and pull her through and just conquer the world with her. I guess maybe dogs smell out their own kind a little quicker... I'm trying to be patient and low-pressure, though... it's just difficult when I see a way that both of us could gain. I've NEVER been good at waiting. I'm more of a "I know what I want, and I want it NOW, and if I have to break my leg getting it, then so be it" kinda way.
It's true... I COULD do it without anyone's help. but I want to do it right this time. I don't want to be homeless again. I want to get out of here and still be sure that I've somewhere to go to when I start over in Washington. And y'know what? I don't want to do it by myself. Sometimes they say that adventures ought to be shared. I think that this is true in all cases, and the only question is who to share the adventure with. I've FINALLY found someone who's worth sharing one with. It just remains to be seen if she cares to participate. Because I'm sitting here steel-backed and bright eyed with determination (that thing some of you call "stubbornness") and hell... I'm pretty sure she'd love to be right at that point with me.
Sometimes when you start feeling blah... numb... and like you're no longer being seduced by the world... it's just time to make a break for it. Really. I mean... haven't you ever wanted to ust take off and run, and not worry about where you'll wind up until you get there, because hell... it's bound to be at least a little different than the point where yoiu started out at, right?
There's so much out there. Sometimes I think I'd find the determintation fo climb high enough to gather up stars in a big bag just so that when I came back, I could give them out as party favors.
I want everything.
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Apr. 28th, 2001 10:58 pmOkay, here's the deal. If I post something here that seems to be directed at any of you, and yet, your name isn't at the beginning of the entry, chances are, it's just me rambling and isn't actually DIRECTED at anyone. I'm not a terribly complex, devious or manipulative person, so chances are there are no hints, clues, or hidden meanings in anything I write.
Clear? Good.
Clear? Good.