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I've been thinking about body image lately, and how lucky I've been by and large to have had lovers who built up my image of myself rather than slowly wearing it down. I remember that with more than one of them, I would ask, "what do you like best about my body?" I would make them go into detail, asking specifically why and what it was they liked about it and how it made them feel. I'm certain they felt that I was fishing for compliments, but after a while of turning the answers over in my mind, they started to mean something to me, and I would get to the point where I could see myself through their eyes to an extent, and it allowed me to see myself as someone who is sexy and beautiful and desireable. I miss that.