Quitting.

So I've bought a pack of smokes, and I am smoking again for the time being. Although I'm a bit disappointed by this I've decided not to beat myself up over it.

I don't want to be a depressed pain in the ass tonight at the bar.

I want everyone to know that I'm still trying to quit, and I expect to be setting another quit date in the near future. I also plan to continue practicing coping with cravings and stuff, and I want people to encourage me to continue trying to quit.

Expressing disappointment in me is not constructive; telling me I'll get it next time is.

I'm sorry to all of those I disappointed after all this drama. I'm sorry to myself as well.

However, quitting takes practice, and very few of the people I've talked to about quitting who have quit have not done so successfully the first time. So I'm not giving up either. Because giving up is not something I tend to do.

Thanks, everyone. Without your support I likely would not have made it the first twelve hours.